Monday, July 25, 2016


Unwinding


What we are is unchanging, effortless and everpresent.
And in this and as this, always changing appearances come and go.

If there is no identification with neither the unchanging condition
nor with the appearances, there will be no preference for 
either this or that.

There is the tendency after initial awakening to identify again,
this time with: 'We are only THIS'.
Usually this is a phase. 
Here is where the concepts:  
"There is no person, there is nothing you can do"  
find their origin.

This is again a duality, as appearances are taken as something different from the Absolute.


This subtle identification can have big consequences 
as it often translates itself as negation of emotions, rejection of the body and mind and consequently the unwillingness to look at the conditioning connected with this.

The result can be suppressed emotions, projections, and psychological hangups many people prefer to pretend they have gone beyond.

The ND world knows quite some smiling teachers with smooth talks who carry a shitload of stuff they do not want to know about, as it does not conform with their conviction of what awakening is.


If we have the fortune to go through this phase, and do not keep our station here, we as it were step out of what we can call the 'hanging out in the Transcendence'. 

Then there seems to be an initial phase of humility,
of surrendering this vastness, 
a willingness to take on again the humanity we all carry and offer this as well as fuel for the fire of self inquiry.

All and everything want to feel, and be the freedom of limitations.

The knots and nooks in our system are unwinding in the
relaxation of surrender to what is.


When there is no identification anymore
there is simply what is happening. 
No rejection
No grasping
No preference
Simply everything that appears and is.


Wednesday, July 20, 2016


Fluctuation


The first step is Self realization.

Knowing beyond doubt that what I am is
unknowable
effortless
everpresent
untouched by appearances
immediate
never not here
not in the stream of time.

And knowing this experiential
so rock solid
that the idea that it can be lost 
is alien and does not enter.
  
Knowing this is so intrinsically that no matter
what happens, no matter what appears,
one knows this can never be lost.


No matter what thoughts, emotions or states,
no matter what incidents, accidents or disasters. 

And not because I repeat this to myself
or dig up a memory of an awakening experience from the past.

As long as there is fluctuation, 
( the i ve got it, i lost it phase )
as long as This is not established beyond doubt
the penny has not completely dropped,
and there is still some way to go.

A process, a ripening, a need for more clarity,
an unveiling of assumptions,
something still obscuring the clear perception,
a seeing through of beliefs.

However paradoxical this may sound
to the conceptually correct nd mind.

And after that..?
Who will tell? 
There is never an end station....





 

Sunday, July 10, 2016


Sunsets and Tidal waves


No separation is
experiencing without boundaries.
Differences exist are seen and noticed.
But everything is still felt as not separate from 
what I am.
Much in the same way an arm is different from
the pancreas or the left big toe, but all is still viewed and experienced as part of the body.

The whole of our experience at every moment.
It does not exclude anything.

Questions coming from an image of how enlightenment looks like frequently come up e.g. to ask if anger or other strong emotions still arises.

The image or expectation of what enlightenment or no separation looks like is never how it is.

It is the whole of our experience.
With everything that appears. 

In my experience right now, in the relaxation that follows when the primary contraction of erroneously experiencing ourselves separate from existence has fallen away, deeper and ever deeper layers of contracted energies are able to come out of hiding.
Coming up after years or lifetimes.
Traumas which were too painful then are coming up 
to be felt and experienced now.

Sunsets and killer whales
Baby seals and rabid dogs
Honeymoon and tidal waves
Daisies and dementia

All that comes up.
In the immediacy.


Tuesday, June 28, 2016