Sweet and Fierce Kisses

Our many layered manifestation,
that through which we perceive the world/ourselves,
is more or less ready to perceive the non separate nature of existence.

This readiness depends partly on how we came into this world.
What kind of package, 
bagage, 
genes, 
culture, 
upbringing.

Much depends on what Life has in store for us.
The impulses motivating us.
Which happenings, accidents, encounters in our lives 
are directing us.

If we are lucky a wish to know takes hold of our lives.
A need to inquire as to why and how we are here.
What is the meaning of all this?

Questioning the so called solid facts of life
the expectations of society, family.

If we are lucky there is still room for the voice of
the unknown beckoning us home.

In this process of discovering and inquiry
many of the filters screening the direct perception 
may leave us.  

Clarity is a powerful means to dissolve the veils
standing between what we are 
and what we think we are.

An awakening experience e.g. can reveal with utmost clarity
that we are not limited by the person we think we are.
We are not separate.
We are a perceiving capacity.
Direct and open.

And when the awakening experience has passed,
we are left to unwind, and unveil 
the trail of identifications laid down in our
mind and body.
Indentations of our passage through this world.

We are asked to ferret out all the hiding places 
of the separate self.
And notice the ways again and again where
identification want to take up station somewhere.


When through Grace the penny drops irrevocably 
we are knowingly the unknowable, unfindable 
always presence of awareness

Then there will be no more room for 
loosing it, or having it.
The identification with the person 
who is suppose to have it or lost it 
has disappeared.

And then still the unraveling continues.
Deeper down in the substance of our matter.
The subconscious, pre-verbal, past lives, 

where trauma's of the past might be hiding.

 
All that wants to be unwound

 

Making more room for clarity
for This to love Itself more nakedly.


And still all that shows itself is This.
Sweet and fierce kisses of
the One substance.
Kissing Itself. 


A wonderful thing is that all the images and expectations
of how spirituality, awakening, realization looks like 
disappear.  

One is whatever is present.




 

 

A Kingdom for a horse

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again.
  

We would trade anything 
not to loose the sense that we are a person


It is too scary...
Because then there is nothing to hold on to.
Nothing to define what we are.


If through Grace letting go happens
it does not follow that there is no more sense of identity.

But then there is identification with whatever appears.  

This and This and This as well, 
in fact Everything.

This is where the identification is.
Everything.

Not in a: 
'whenever you are sweet you are welcome to stay' 
kind of way.

No everything:
emotions
appearances
thoughts
sense perceptions
discernment
actions

An all inclusive of all that appears.

The hurricanes and the sunsets.


Everything is the substance of what we are.
Life.

The Kingdom is us and ours already  

No need for a horse.

Unless we enjoy the ride of course.

Do you notice?

Now
Right Now
Always the present moment
Not yesterday
Not tomorrow or later
But simply now
Always always now
Now on a chair, or a couch
reading these words
while we hear the slight buzz of our device
birds whistling
a dripping tap
thoughts about breakfast are passing
and the body aches still a bit from yesterdays exercise
This is where we are now until it changes into the next now
It is always Now you see.
But simply now.
Nothing special about the present moment.

Here 
Always right here
Not somewhere else
Some place else
But simply right here
In this location at this moment
Present moment awareness
Here is where the sensory perceptions are noticed.
The wind coming in through the windows 
touching the skin on the legs
The young rooster from the neighbours crying out
The wind rustling the leaves of the palmtrees
The fridge humming away
A mongoose mother and baby walking over the terrace
Simply here and now

Do you notice when the narrative of the mind 
with the stories about the person
and the past and the future subsides
life is whole and complete?
Already
Full and alive
Simply here and now
Present moment awareness
Do you notice? 

And do you notice that nothing is needed to
make this happen?
Simply noticing this?
That it is already the case?