As a consequence of integration and actualization
which happens after awakening,
the exclusive focus on Nonduality
as a separate object to be busy with, has disappeared.
In the beginning, just after the idea that there is a separate entity had evaporated, ( the honey moon phase )
there was a wish to understand what had happened.
And in my case, there was a lot of reaching out to others,
to share the joy of recognition.
This amazing open secret of intimacy with all that is,
that is so available
and always here already.
Hours and hours were spend in sharing, talking and verbalizing
about the one thing which cannot be grasped.
And in the process of doing so,
made a conceptual world come into being.
As if it is possible to talk about This
Giving the illusion that it is something
which can be given or got.
As if ND is something separate from life.
Since some time the interest in doing this has disappeared
Even Nonduality can be a trap
a conceptual overlay
where you take up a station.
As if you have reached somewhere.
Life is just life, living.
With all and everything included.