A bargain

Letting go of pretense, 
the masks
and all the roles we play.

Letting go of ideals, 
ideas and beliefs.

Letting go of
everything we hold dear,
everything we think is true.

As these are filters which
shield us from the raw reality of Life

And in the space which gets created,
by not filling in the emptiness with our noise,
we as it were allow our senses to clear 
as we do not rush in to label
whatever information comes in through the senses.


Then there is the immediacy of knowing.
Being the knowing. 

And simultaneously
we enter a space of not knowing.
As everything appears as if for the first time.

And it does. 


There can be a honeymoon at first with this 
new uncluttered way of experiencing Life.

Elation, insights, bliss, clarity.
The thrill of being alive 
open and unbound.


But then as well there can be confusion and depression
as this blast of freedom can shatter the very foundations
of what we always felt was safe and secure.
We walk on shaky ground.
Not yet used being comfortable 
to live without limitations.

Life can as well appear as empty, sterile, meaningless
as the old structures are dissolving. 

In this open Space,
unprotected because the filters have gone 
also things in our personal make up 
of limitations and old pains,
often after years of being in a contraction, 
can be tickled and teased to open up by this new freedom.

A whole range of emotions might visit us.
As a blast from the past.
Despair, anger, sadness, anguish.


Or pains or shaking of the body
as energy gets released.

Shedding an old skin can be a painful.

Be sure to know what you want.
Enlightenment can be 
more than you bargained for.










 

Dare?

What happens when we let go of concepts?

What if we are able to let go of all frameworks 
which up to now helped us to navigate this
big amorphous thing we call Life.
( Where we try make sense of the sensory perceptions,
the actions happening around us and through us.)

Can we let go of all beliefs, stories and 
the way we think the universe works?

Can we also let go of the Nondual jargon,
the Nondual way we have accostumed to look at ourselves and the world?

( Nonduality almost starts to reek after a cult.
Is it the beginning of a religion?
Words as Nondualism for instance...  What is that? )


Words are used within a context where there is a reference point, a duality.

The immediacy, the direct perception is already here, 
alive, 
before words and concepts appear,
and does not need our understanding.  

It is the recognition.
moment to moment.

To be present with 
whatever, 
whatever is appearing.

No need to cut it up in me and the world
inside or outside
or spin a story around it.


Do we dare to let go 
and fall into the mystery?












 

Are you present and aware?

The instruments of the body mind,  
through which emptiness experiences
and expresses itself,
have been geared from day one 
to notice seamlessly all that appears.

Not perceiving separation as the personality structure 
has not been build up yet.

At first in awe about the endless wonder of things,
and as education and conditioning 
are making their inroad
through parents, siblings, teachers, friends,
in an ever increasing sense of unease.

Slowly giving in to the demands and expectations of the ones who care for us, we start to loose our wholeness and start to identify with the persona.

Our attention gets mesmerised and caught 
by the self-referential thoughts and patterns 
we mistakingly call me.
Taking us away from here and now
to regrets and guilt of the past or 
hopes and fears for the future.

All the while the senses are hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting, here and now.

Always present yes,
but mostly not aware.

A next jacket?

What is it in us that is perceiving?
What is it that is reading these words right now?

What is it that is noticing the difference 
in temperature in the room 
or the sudden feeling of unease?

The taste of coffee
the irritating noise of the drilling machine next door.
Thoughts about the dinner you had yesterday with a friend?

Who or what is seeing this all coming and going?



Whatever is right now in our field of perception
is effortlessly seen, noticed and felt.

What is it?

This most basic and primal principle.


Without it nothing even exist because it is not perceived.

Who and what are we?


This is a most amazing journey and adventure,
if we can do this exploration for the sake of truth,
for a need to know.

If we do this with an intention to get something out of this,
or to make us feel better 
we will get disappointed.

The brutal fact is that this journey 
is not to acquire and achieve but rather
to see through, let go, and loose.

To notice everything and anything which is 
limiting us, defining us.

And if we can be aware enough we see
that these are just habits,
thought-constructs which at times help us 
to navigate through life but often 
limit us and enslave us.

If we can see this happening,
we already create space, 
loosen the identification with the personal story.



But notice that at any time the strong habit
of identifying can crawl into the next jacket.

e.g. the ND person who has seen It.
Who is beyond it all 
and can now assume an identity around This 
of feeling more special or more free.

Another crutch to hang on to?